Move on, April.

Utterly heartbreaking March.

I've a broken gearbox, massive heartbeat pumping rushing through my veins and the end of a  dreamy fairytale.

I'm back to basic, routine has changed, I need to take my mind of the constant and monotonous routine,

picking up back all the scattered pieces.

My eyes dont' flicker around as much as they used to.

Never expect, never assume and never ask for things.

I've re-do my things to do and places to go list and try to sort things back.

Things happens.

However, I'm blessed that I've a nice celebration on my 25th.  I love the annual family makan besar and thank you for coming and a super big thanks to Hana jugak. Loved. Thank you, youu for the day out too.

Nak pegi batting, oyster goreng, kuetiaw and lotsa oyster goreng please.

Where art thou;

Monthly dose for feb;

Congrats to friends who's getting married and to bestie who's engaged :) Congrats again Hana!

I've been browsing thru happy and pretty pictures which keeps on updating my news feed. A friend once asked me, "z : mashi, aku rase update kau yang paling kurang skali. kenape..?" haha. My status is only updated only once a month, 15% of the pictures are uploaded on my mobile uploads and the rest of em is perfectly captured, saved, stored and uploaded in my heart. Yeay.

Ohh, thanks for the early vday treat and delicious drink tak ingat nama, Ole-ole bali lunch and random breakfast in the morning.hehe. Loved!

23rd feb, first year of the working life with the very first proper job. Made new friends, learned new things, worked around the clock, spoke to various slang and god-knows hundreds off random people from all over the globe, got my hands on that drumset and cuba2 drum roll and couple rounds of pool session as a first timer. During the first 3 months, I kept repeating the same thing to my colleague " ni bukan tempat aku. cukup 3 bulan berhenti.".. and yeap..I'm amazed that I'm still here. Maybe it's nothing more than coincidence that I've met him on our Europe shift last June :)

It's 2:42am and the macbook is still with me. Someone is missing. Where art thou?

Go figure!

A pretty pretty good ending for 2009 to receive my paycheque and off for a super vacation yang kena cut short sebab we were back a day early and a pretty good kick start for 2010 too.

The best thing in Shanghai? cruising through the awesome magnificent structures and architecture under blue sky and starry starry night right from the 20th century building  right through the Pudong Skyline with -2 degrees wind from the deck of the cruise..freezing but lovely! It's like a mini tokyo without the river. We're having a hard time communicating with the locals to get around the town but at the same time we did polish our skills on our guessing people's gestures and sign language. Ayah's guesses was wayyy out of the the box, mom's was slightly better, while ariff and mine was...crap. haha. The conversation will go something like " When are we going to have our lunch Jack? " and he say " Hmmmm.. I see..hmmm aah" Hahah. Perfect. Shopping wise, everything under the sun was dirt cheap. One of the favourite purchase was a furry sandal from Ugg boots for rm25 and a perfect winter jacket for coming trips? heh.

Shanghainese are humans too. They're too busy and they don't have times to even greet people. Wow busy nye. Maybe its their way of life or mayybee it was the previous winter holiday where we're in Japan and I kept comparing them with japanese. Heh. yeap, i missed everything about nippon. However, we did have a great journey back home from Shanghai where things were upgraded. Classy classy.

Back to reality, I have my list  to do in my notes. A benchmark to achieve things. Work hard, play hard.

Apart from that, blame the shift. Wishing for the spontaneous roadtrips, fly a kite, fishing, simple makan night out or random trips to airport that we used to go.

Nothing much to look forward after kerja. No more pool session and drums. Oh, maybe is not the shift, it's the accompany. We'll be hitting the drums alone tonight. Perfect.

My dearie precious laptop will be having a new look. Gorgeous.

Praying for things to be in the right place 2010. Away from any intruders. Thank you god.

Razu's previous post is loved. :)

xx Signing off from his macbook. Damn teringin satu!

Medan du var borta...

Nderuar bukuroshe,

Strávil 2 hodiny listovala stránkami své obrázky. Doufám, že děláte dobře, a tam na tlačítko OK. Když si nejste tady tě vidím, cítím se, cítím tě, potřebuju tě.  

Иска ми се да пиша повече и да ви помогне да обобщим проблеми тази година и радости като пъзел. Но аз вярвам, една година е най-добър преглед преразгледани след година, приключила. Така че, моля те, обратно на soonest не за преглед, а защото ми липсваш.  

p/s: Tu aimeras ton écriture plus que le mien. : *

3 months at a glance

diciembre;

supposed to reached tokyo by now and got lost with him in shinjuku 3 tier metro subway station upon arriving from osaka using shinkansen after 6 hours flight from kl with our backpack and current weather temperature would be around 5 degrees maximum and lowest is 3 degrees which is still bearable..and windy, emmmmm but due to certain circumstances, sempat download tokyo subway map je to iphone and daydreaming in the car while driving to work due to traffic jam madness sebab radio broken. lovely. itsokay. next..shanghai with love! ohh, happy b'day mama :).

congrats to all yang married and engaged! especially ain yang claimed to be violence. those were the days.

noviembre;

too much tension at the workspace, people and again workspace and that specific reason. did my medical checkup.. alone , got my 2nd copy of the crooked spine, broken down for good 30 minutes..or more. teary teary eye and sobbing badly on the phone. hah. rare cases..i know.

ohh..dengan something2 salad kt wondermilk tu delicious sangat and new perfect-heavenly fresh scent to smell for. love it. obrigado youu! ♥

octubre;

heartbreaking eidlfitri & joyable ones. ups and downs, highs and lows spirits are how things works. there you go.

aildilfitri,

Happy Aidilfitri.


goodluck untuk kwn yg fly to UK. all the best.

wishing untuk tak kerja on oct's weekend. amin.

thankyou for sahur-s and bukapuasa n esp. youu yg selalu teman.loveyou. ;)


take care.

Maaf zahir dan batin.

respect.

A simple action yang;
tak payah gerak kan jari,
tak payah drive and beli kat kedai,
tak payah bakar and inhale,
tak payah buang and exhale.
tapi
as easy for a naive kid untuk respect her older sister,
but
might not be easy for a matured person to respect another person's feelings.
As simple to repect,
a person's things,
a person's decision,
a person's interest,
a person's heart.

Sadly,
action yang tak ade harga and super-limited-movement ni,
action yang paling susah nak buat.
or maybe respect is totally magic.

*******

A deep conversation with him is sometimes good for mashi,
sebab she's no good in expressing her feelings,
but it is good to keep her mind running.
Thank you for the super-lovely morning dearie.
love.

It's time to sleep.